Okay. Confession time. The reason I haven't posted in a few days is not just because I've been busy with Easter etc. Honestly, I have really been struggling with this whole foot pain situation. After my planters fasciitis diagnosis, the pep left my step. I was on such a good two month role at the gym and loving Zumba and now it seems as though its all come to a screeching halt. It's knocked the wind out of my sails to be perfectly blunt.No, I'm not giving up. That's no longer an option. I am however having to really buckle down and push through the mental mush into the core of me. You know, its easy to feel happy and encouraged when things are going good and when you're up. Who needs much determination then?
I realize this sounds like a boo-hoo, woah is me complaint. Thats not my intention. Writing this blog has been more therapeutic than I anticipated, so getting my honest feelings out is very helpful. I keep returning to the fact that this is just a little detour and its really forcing me to trust in the Lord and NOT on my own abilities. I know, I know. I'm supposed to have that in the bag by now, right? Well, I'm 30 and still learning.
It's humbling, enlightening and even confusing at times but the bottom line: I will win. I will keep going and keep walking in victory even if its at 10 MPH for a season. Slow and steady wins this race. This one goes out to anyone suffering with injuries or hang ups. WE can do it! Listen to your body, but don't get discouraged. Don't stay down. We can do ALL things through Christ because He surely strengthens us!
Blonde Sheep you amaze me. Your perspective is actually very good. Honesty with yourself is key. Believe you can and you will. You are being an open book right now to the many that read this blog. Some will comment, some won't. You are reaching MANY right where they are and stripping years of bondage off of them by exposing the lies that have been tormenting them for years.
ReplyDeleteI am ALWAYS praying for you. We are so connected not only by Christ but our deep friendship and times of joy, sadness and years of crazy times.
You will conquer...you will rise and stand this test of time and you will impact others with your testimony with this blog, with your smile, your truth and the very fact you will win.
I never knew that when Christopher died how anything good could ever come from something so horrendous. My 16 yr old was gone forever. However, in time facing it head on like what you are doing now, that big scary moment in time that seemed to be able to control every breath of my life...the one where I thought would never allow me to see the "other side of normal" again was closer than I thought. It seemed like just when I was about to get over this huge hill my legs gave out and I would roll back down to the bottom. What I am trying to say say Alice is we are FIGHTERS, you know it. Even when our legs are rubber form the burn of that hill we are walking up for the 200th time we WILL do it. I will see you succeed! I see it, I believe it and I got you covered to the hilt in prayer!
That touched my core. Thank you my friend, I love you forever
ReplyDeleteAlice, know that there are so many out there struggling with you, and pulling alongside you cheering you on!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the encouragement! Two years ago I tried to get into running. Went well for 3 weeks, then I injured my leg and could hardly walk. That finally got better and I threw my back out. I've been using that as my excuse to not try it again. I should probably stop my pity party :)
ReplyDeleteI love you Alice. You know how to persevere! I'm kind of going through the same. Just know that all is fair in love and war, right now your in the trenches and where many have fallen I know you'll rise and conquer! You have a divine wisdom and truth about you, nothing but weight will be lost. Chelle is right you are a 'fighter' and your winning the battle. Love you "right Alice" :)
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